Friday, November 04, 2005

to tell the truth or just lie?

in this day and age when everything can be covered up by anything or that things can be made to appear other than its true form (pwede na gumawa ng nude photos or video ng isang tao, pwedeng mag edit ng totoong sinabi ng tao either thru the help of technology or by just mere editing -magdagdag or magbawas, ang mga taong nagkukuwento, magbago ng expenditures by adding some commas and zeros, magbago ng election results), i ask this question... does it still pay to be honest?

since we were kids, we were taught that lying is bad, that liars go to hell, o kaya naman hahaba ang ilong mo pag nagsinungaling ka, [thanks to the story of pinocchio!] hmmm....pwede rin at di masyado matangos ang ilong ko! our elders, (parents, grandparents, godparents, teachers at lahat ng taong naunang ipanganak sa atin) can't over emphasize the lesson that honesty is the best policy. but while we are growing old, this lesson tend to be bent and/or broken. sa mga matatanda, ang nagiging lesson na (actually nagiging 11th, 12th at 13th commandment pa respectively) is thou shall not be caught, or if caught deny, or if denying doesn't work, implicate others.

mahirap ba talaga ang magsabi ng totoo? sabi nila, the truth hurts, but the truth shall set you free. ano ba talaga mga ate at kuya? mahirap ba ang magsabi ng totoo at magpakatotoo? if almost everybody is lying, will it make sense if you also lie? (if you can't beat them, join them) why not join the game of deceit? eh teka muna, bakit ba kasi kailangang magsinungaling?

for one, nagsisinungaling siguro ang tao kasi alam nya, mali ang ginawa/gagawin nya and he/she doesn't want to pay the price of his/her wrong doing. in short, this is a premeditated act (parang sa kaso, ito ay murder dahil pinag isipan, di tulad kung homicide lang ang kaso, tama ba ang aking legal opinion?) in the movie a few good men, tom cruise was questioning jack nicholson, JACK: You want answers? TOM: I want the truth! JACK: You can't handle the truth! hmmm.... so this is another reason to lie, because people can't handle the truth? aren't we being unfair to these people who seem to us, to be incapable of handling the truth? aren't we denigrating their capability to process no less than the truth that's why it becomes necessary to lie?

lies come in different form and intensity, but i think one of the more serious form of lying is lying to oneself and lying to others on how you feel. I will have to say that people who are capable of doing this has my utmost admiration (for lack of a better term). teka, nakukuha kaya ito sa isang acting workshop? ; ) isa pa nga direk!

i have lived 30 years of my life here on earth.... met a lot of people already and experienced a bunch of ups and downs in life. but it still saddens me that people have been dishonest, especially about their feelings. i am not saying i never lied, i have my fair share of lying too.... lalo na pag gigimik ako nung high school (lahat na ng kamag anak ng barkada ko, pati kapit bahay ng barkada ko nagbirthday para lang makaalis ng bahay) but what i have proven is, it pays to be honest on your feelings.

we can lie about anything and everything, we can deceive anybody and everybody..... but in the end, only two will know the truth, the person involved and GOD.

Thursday, November 03, 2005

can i blog?

It's been almost a month since i tried exploring the world of blogging and as i suspected, i was not able to do this thing religiously. (obvious ba, isang buwan ang pagitan ng first and second enty. muntik pang madisgrasya coz i can't remember my username and password!!! buti na lang equipped ang mga ganitong site ng recovery of pass words and username, para sa mga taong uliyanin, by choice or by chance). though my mind is capable of processing events and things just like fernando alonso finishes a grand prix race sa formula 1, (though i am not saying i am a genius, minsan praning lang ako kaya madalas mag isip) i couldn't find enough time(?) or motivation (?) to sit down in front of my computer to share my thoughts. hesitations? marami. i have read a lot of entries of my friends, of people i really didn't know and who don't know me either and i simply marvel on how they can put into words their heart and soul with reckless abandon. and i simply ask myself... "kaya ko ba yun?" can i express myself that well? to tell my story, my thoughts, that people will see through the words i write and see the human letting out his/her very soul?

i am in one of the most "interesting" (lack of a better term) in my life... when i am experiencing, i think if not the most difficult, one of the most difficult times in my existence, when the true resilience of the human heart and spirit is tested with unforgiving events... and i wanna let it out, not to consciously share it, but i guess and more importantly as a therapy that can hopefully cure me, that can help heal a wounded soul... well, wish me luck.